I'm not ego, I just accept myself.

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Oh my God… I’m so an ungrateful whining bitch! A fucking attention whore! I make peoples days worse than it already is and first I don’t even notice and than that the hell can I do? Apologies and try to make them to ignore me… But it looks like i would make things like that on porpuse, ‘cause I’m pathetic… Oh my… Really I don’t even know why nobody kills me… Or I’m that ugly? That they can’t even kill me, becuse they afraid they might need to touch me? Fuck… Okay… I don’t even know what I want to write. I feel like an angry ball which needs a release, but I’m so tired I barely can move my fingers… And I feel bad because someone might read this and than think: ‘what she’s doing here? If she wants to kill herself so badly and know how fat and how worthless she is than it’s not the only way? Which is happened to be the easiest way ever she really can’t complain!’ So what am I doing still here? Yeah… Nobody knows really. I always fucking things up and sometimes I wonder why is this happening to me, but it’s obvious, right? I’m just a fag who needs to die… 

I’m sorry, whoever read this, just keep scrolling.

I don’t understand myself. I always talk even thouh I know I shouldn’t… okay, I mustn’t. I’m a fucked up and a failure, I really just go to die, I don’t know what i’m doing here when I’m just a pain in the ass. My friends don’t want to understand me, they don’t want to know the real me. One of them said that if I’m acting more like this he will stop talking to me… And really. I can’t blame him. He has a life too, why should he care, right?

And I promised myself, that I won’t be stupid or annoying when I don’t even know what she/he feels (a.k.a. talking online or maybe in phone) and what did I do? Of course I did exactly the opposite thing. I guess I really should just everyone alone if I want them to be happy. I are about them, so yeah… I should just be killed in fire so my parents don’t need to pay for a casket. Yeah, I think this is the perfect dream which should just happen.

And oh gosh, I soooo want to cut, but fuck, I can’t, because yeah, my hips are a safe place but my parents and I are going to the beach and… fuck… I need to wear  a swimsuit, so my scars wouldn’t be covered and then they would just find out. Argghhh I so hate this.  But then I have a freeway… yay. 

And right now I need to learn for tomorrow, but I can’t… really, I can’t bring my attention to what I need to study, and honestly, I don’t even see the point to study if I’m just going to die… uh… it’s harsh(?), but I have this feeling for years now, so it’s probably will happen in this year…. uh… I think I should just shut up, I seriously don’t know why I writing this here, I guess I just needed a place where I can be an attention whore, or a bitch, or something like that.